affection: mind and heart.

i'm not in love
that's what i always tell myself
and that's what i believe is the truth

but what is this?

this fluttery feeling of being near you.
this eerily calm aura when i talk to you.
this funny feeling - jealousy?
when i see you with someone else
talking about her who i don't really know

i thought we were just friends.
at least,
i always say that.

i never could understand why.
and at the end,
i start to see sparks of the light,
glistening silvery dark skies,
dreams of me and you.

i think i'm not.

but maybe i am.