if it's not about me, why am I the one that's in so much pain? why is it me that's never enough? why is it me that's always working but unrecognised? why can't anything i do be for myself? Yes. i'm selfish. Yes. i'm very much imperfect. I can't find anything good that's desirable in myself. i admit it. i just can't help myself. i don't care anymore. thanks for ruining my self esteem. i know well i'm not worthy of anything. besides, i might have never existed anyway.