let go.

i seem to always let go of the wrong things.
i release the pain i have by forgetting memories.
i only keep sweet memories.
but even so, i forget it in a matter of months.
i'm learning, but i find myself failing.
all the time.
it's impossible to survive like this.
i don't know myself anymore.
i've changed to the point i don't know who i am.
staring into the mirror, i see me.
staring into the soul of my reflection, i don't know who that is.
i guess it's just somebody i used to know.
maybe the flames inside have diminished into faint ashes by now.
maybe the sparks of life have already burnt out.
maybe there's no other way of saying it better in words.
the feeling of it
is agony in itself.